today again.

the pain is unexplainable.
all she could think of
how long do i have to endure it?
how long do i have till i can't walk?
what's next?

again today is a bad day haa
hang in there. just hang in there.
just fcking hold on okay.
you need this conversation ain't it?
..

they said it's okay everyone feels the same.
then why no one find the answer/cure?
they said it will passed.
when?
they said you are not alone.
then where is everyone?
they said you have to fight it.
how?
they said it is only in your mind.
then how to get it out?
they said a lot of thing..
but none is useful.

my best advice don't listen to them. they don't know a thing. no one knows other then you. whatever is in your mind is yours. it's either you keep it/throw it/ love it/embrace it/hate it. it's your call it's your decision to make.

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and i have mine.

the limited words
the unknown
the uncertainty
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she's no more..
don't look for her
stop looking for her

the demand is real
and she just try to live.
trying not be the waste of space.
don't blame her for leaving

sometimes she came.
seldom
but she came sometimes.
just to keep her in check.
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.
she wonder what happened.
how did we end up here
why did we put ourselves here?

she is done.
in so many occasions she realize she is no more..
with no goodbye
no last word
she left
for good. today.

Because it's so good it deserve a post

She always has a smile
From morning to the night
The perfect poster child
That was once in my life

A doll made out of glass
All her friends think that she's great
But I can see through it all
And she's about to break

Remember last year when you told me
To always stay here and never leave me
The light from your eyes made it feel like
We-e-e were dancing in the moonlight
Remember last year when you told me
That these will be lifelong stories
The light from your eyes made it feel like
We-e-e, we're dancing in the moonlight
You-ou-ou were dancing in the moonlight
And I, I, I was dancing in the moonlight

Now she lost her way
And she forgets to smile
Never gets a break
From this life in denial

A doll made out of glass
All her friends think that she's great
But I can see through it all
And she's about to break, oh!

Remember last year when you told me
To always stay here and never leave me
The light from your eyes made it feel like
We-e-e, we're dancing in the moonlight
Remember last year when you told me
That these will be lifelong stories
The light from your eyes made it feel like
We-e-e, we're dancing in the moonlight


You-ou-ou were dancing in the moonlight
And I, I, I was dancing in the moonlight

I, I, I, miss those me-mo-ries
We used to share
Just you and me

I remember last year when I told you
I would always stay here and never leave you
I told you the light in your eyes made it look like
We-e-e, we're dancing In the moonlight
Remember last year when you told me
To always stay here and never leave me
The light from your eyes made it feel like
We-e-e, we're dancing In the moonlight

The light from your eyes made it feel like
Dancing In the moonlight


And the video is so cool. Applause to you miss Grace Vanderwaal

in chains, why is it like this?
how did we become like this?
like always, it's the same day
and i'm some place alone
what do we look forward to?
what will we throw away again?
like a fool, i give and receive wounds
why is it like this in this strange world?
now there's no love in anything between us
it's only a game of tug-of-war
now there's really no love in anything in our relationship
only a bed of thorn grows endlessly

now there's no love between us...
someday will i be there?
it all this were to pass like the wind, would i be able to smile?

Your smile that I used to know

She seems pretty, she seems nice

Baby baby

I don’t know why I’m being like this

She seems pretty, she seems nice

Are you okay?

Are we over? Are we just friends?

Honestly, when I see you