new year is coming!!!!
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2016 has been bitter sweet. mostly boring.
but it's a life lesson nonetheless.
a lot of changes
a lot of growth
a lot of ups and down
all in all a good year.a good year
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best memories in 2016....
i make few new friends. cool friends. good friends
that's a good start. change is good.
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worst memories in 2016
still najib.rosmah
nothing can top this
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one last question in 2016
will you be more happier?
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got a question? ask awayyyy..
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another happy post. good me good me. "pat on the back"

i realize i am not a happy person here. most of the time. either am lost, pissed or just random.

welp here is the happy me although am super tired. done with finance paper today. damn they are not easy!! i think i just overused my brain after so long.

just one more sem belogie one more sem and i'll be done. jyeahhhh
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i am happy but i am tired so yeah i'll try to be here more when am happy. happy thought happy mode. usually when am happy is when am having my manic episode... yep
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so
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manic is hyper..hyper me is just jumpy and out of control. and definitely not going to sit down and wrote sweetly. kekekeke
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i'll try i'll try belogie. i want to remember am not just dark but there's a light here and there sometime.

knee pain is real bitch!!!!!
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ye aku tahu-
sakit itu ujian
sakit itu penghapus dosa
merungut itu tidak bersyukur
mengeluh itu tidak elok
yes
yes
yes
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and yes i am just human
at some point i got to let it out
i need to stay sane
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the pain is real!!
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the bitch part is i am so used to the pain that i forgot i am actually in pain
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and here i am suddenly remembered that i am in pain.
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paracetamol ubat tahan sakit is nothing
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and am allergic to some of it...buh how not surprising
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!@#$%^&*()!!!!!

because i still function even in pain

our parents love books. that's how all five of us love books. it all start with parents. 

today i lost it.
no more.
so close.
all i could think of
last wish.
again and again i thought what's my last wish
last food to taste
last thing to do
one last thing
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please no more.
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god don't give up
but i do

for so long she's been holding to this tiny winy rope
and she don't have the desire no more
it's driving her crazy.
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she have a talk
the talk.
with a friend
because she can't talk her self over no more
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god don't give up
but i do
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she don't want to go home
it doesn't feel like home
it's not home
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allah maha pengampun
you can do this. fight
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how she wish she can.
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i guess that's  her last wish


fight.