i can't touch the sky
but--
i've had my head among the cloud

i can't see the wind
but--
i've feel its present everyday

i can't run from frustration
but--
i've manage to go through it

i can't be the hero
but--
i've tried to give my best

i can't walkaway from problem
but--
i've found a way to have faith and redha

i can't turn back time
but--
i've learn to live with it and make full use of it.

i can't erase the bad memories
but--
i've move on and still is.

i can't help feeling sad
but--
i've manage to see the sunny day

i can't stop from felt hurt
but--
i've learn to believe in God.

and today
i can't feel the love
but--
i know God love me double infinity.
_kaKikaRut_

mula2 sekali nak buat statement..kalau agak2 anda memang tak boleh tahan dengan bahasa yang agak kasar menunjukkan realiti kehidupan..jangan baca post ini. ini post untuk mereka, kita, awak, saya, semua ambil pengajaran. terutamanya untuk makhluk yang digelar perempuan~
yang kedua, post ini adalah repost..which means post ini BUKAN DITULIS OLEH SAYA pemilik blog ini..
ini adalah hasil karya Fynn Jamal...love and always inspired by her words regardless the language what people call harsh. to me its better said that way.. barulah orang nak sedar bila ayat tu kena batang hidung sendiri. boleh buat pedoman bolah buat pengajaran boleh buat kita bukak mata luas333>>>>>

because i feel like i'm the worst
so, i always act like i'm the best...


its the best way i find to get rid of everything
the best way to be cool
the best way to be sane...hmmm is it?
but i never the best....
not good enough..just not enough
but am not giving up...i did once and one is enough
just hang in there yo!
its the way God say I Love You.


p/s: get yourself together okay!! you can do it..you always manage...you'll find the true means of fine okay 'me'. stay put and wait for me to get you okai!

how hard it is i'll just grit my teeth, clench my fist and hold my breath
denying is never the best choice
sometime its the only choice.
hypocrite?
everybody does it. how wrong it may sound, its a must. less problem, less hurt you'll make.
but you have to pay for it.
everything have a price.
the price is 'pain'.
the more you use it the larger the pain the little heart of yours to bear.
sometime it is better to leave at that.
sometime it is better to be less favorable person.
sometime it is better to be the last.
sometime it is better to be the jerk.
sometime it is better to be self centered
sometime it is better to be blur
sometime it is better to be the supporting role.
sometime it is better just to leave~

here goes nothing....

 The world is three days: As for yesterday, it has vanished, along with all that was in it. As for tomorrow, you may never see it. As for today, it is yours, so work in it.                                        -Hassan al-Basri-

it seem so clear and easy.
it sound so smooth.
why do i found it difficult
just move on kan. Ya Allah, kekadang aku ni simpan memories sampai tak boleh tidur dua tiga hari asyik fikir jer. patutnya aku buat macam ni. macam tu macam ni.. aku tak patut buat macam ni macam tu. adoiii penatnya bila kita senang maafkan orang ni. diri sendiri pulak yang dipersalahkan. i accept my weaknesses which i think is good kot. but its not good when i keep on feeling bad bout myself kan?
arghhhhhhhhhh dah start dah~ ?(taksukadepressionitsfreakinghurt)

-__________-
saya sangat penat dan mengantuk
tapi saya nak sangat hapdate post ni dek kerana rasa yang sangat bangga dengan seseorang.

umur baru nak mencecah 10 tahun t
kiranya dalam darjah 3 nak masuk darjah 4 la ni.
im absofrigginlutely blown away by her.
me during this time of age tengah sibuk panjat pokok, main perang2 (sorry ak xlayan main masak2 Ooopss) masuk Dapur memang jauh sekali. means masuk nak tolong masak ke basuh pinggan ke. Memang Tak!
bukan tanak tapiiii hentah memang tak de maknanya lah masa tu. maybe sebab anak bongsu kot. mak aku asyik tak payah la masuk dapur serabut mengacau, tak payah nak rajin sangat pergi main jauh2 (kang sekarang pun dah suka main2) huhu sorry Bonda. bukan salahmu ku jadi begini.
Tapi budak Ni yang aku jumpa masa pergi rumah orang korbankan kambing kat kampung hape hentah. kesimpulannya, aku jumpa dia kat situ la cucu orang tu ase nya. budak perrempuan ni kakak pada dua orang adik which gave me slap in the face first, bila dia tegur adik dia sebab buat bising main depan2 tetamu, aku macam okayyyyyyy macam orang besar dah dia maybe sebab dia kakak. but then, masuk la pulak kat dapur umah orang ni (apa ke jadah hentah pegi masuk dapur rumah orang). termasok la lebih kurang, aku tengok dia tengah sibuk tolong mak dia kat dapur. aku pun mencelahlakan "bagusnya dia, kecik2 dah rajin tolong mak. pandai pulak tu buat keje" tetiba mak dia cakap dia dah pandai siang ikan ayam n masak. dia memang dah biasa buat keje dapur. hambik KAU~ cam kena slap kat muka. teerkejut kot. bagi orang lain biasa lah kot. bagi aku memang sangat mengagum kan! Amazing yo. aku masa umur belasan pun terkial-kial lagi siang ayam ngan ikan. pandai okies cuma slow.(aku memang lembab pun so xpelah kan). 
then mak dia cakap lagi, kalau pandai belajar sampai masuk uni tapi xpandai buat keje dapur baik tak payah. buat malu jer. sekali lagi rasa kena slap. adoiiiiiiiiii~ huhuhuhus entap uolsss

betullah kata pepatah:

lentur buluh biar dari rebungnya.

see the result. Dek kerana mak dia didik dia dari kecil dah pandai buat keje, hormat orang tua, tak main koksir kokdam (hahaha bahasa kelantan so kalau ada ke'curious'an sila google).