some things seems so unreachable

this is not some fancy fantasy

this is for something as easy as getting up and move

it's hard

go out.. do something

it's hard

no motivation and no mood 

how are you to go out and do something when you just dont have the motivation. 

it is a lot easy to call it lazy

but it's painful when you are fully aware of your self and frustrated by it

 mood

what do i do with you.

mood 

why is it so complicated for us

mood 

be nicer and be livelier

wish it was that easy to change our mood

There's always two sides

The inside

The outside

It's polar opposite

Too different

Sometimes it's too much

Then you became the spectator of the two side

It gets confusing

Everything went ambiguous so fast you barely grasp it--

It's scary..

The inside is loaded with differences 

So many angle

So many perspective

So many individuality 

The inside in one word is -- scary.

..

The outside is simple

Straightforward 

Easy

Nothing.

Too much nothingness it hurt

It's more hurt seeing it and realising how nothing it is. Empty

The outside is one word is -- scary.