current state of mind: doesn't have suicidal thought doesn't mean you want to live.
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anhedonia: inability to feel pleasure
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nothing really matters.
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i laugh
i cry
i live
and it's empty
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is this the cost to survive
a lost cost
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it's treatable they said
back in my head i do hope so too
maybe
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good taste is better than bad taste, but bad taste is better than no taste - arnold bennett

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a lost cost is a lost cost
live is the only answer
the only salvaging i can do
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you can't gain back the loses but you can salvage the situation by making more profit to cover the loses to make it balance
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so live
cause no harm
do good
stay alive
keep existing
even how empty it is

life is a learning process