how can i say don't worry everything goin' to be just fine...
as if everything will come through, every problem will find its solution
and make the life sound easy
well let me tell you something-----its not!
life itself is complicated..aren't i right?
what the hell does the word life means?
every individual have their own interpretation of this word. it depend on how they live their life and depend on their point of view on living. well it differ of course since not everybody live in the same life we live in.
 i find it hard to understand why does that someone can't just live a better life and let go of the past and move on... easy been said doesn't it. the one who knows the answer to why they still clinging to the past is that someone. our shoes might not fit that someone shoes...that's the fact that i'm sure many of us knew however we never fail to make the same judgement like we know nothing about this.

do you know what lies behind the smile?
someone can endure sad thing and act tough even inside you feel like want to scream out loud saying
"IT HURTS OKAY!! REALLY REALLY HURT!!"
when people dont give a respond to what you say doesnt meant it doesn't hurt...doesn't mean im not sad..
im working hard to cope with it. i really do.
mungkin inilah kelebihan aku or is it kelemahan aku?emmemmemm
easy to give forgiveness...senang sangat sangat senang. seteruk mana aku rasa sakit tu
just give me a day and dont annoy me in this whole day im sure i will forgive that person.
but im not someone who easily forget..aku jenis yang cepat serik.
takoot aku rasa sakit tu untuk kali kedua~
sebab aku yakin dan kenal diri aku lebih dari orang lain kenal aku
kalau sakit tu datang kali kedua im sure aku bukan je tak boleh maafkan si antagonis itu, i cant even forgive myself for hurting my poor little heart.my poor poor heart


aku memang cepat panas tapi aku jarang nak melenting
paling paling pun aku mengamuk seorang diri dulu dalam tandas sekarang dalam kereta sambil drive..[hehe bahayakan]

i always carry my fake smile with me everywhere and ready to use it at any time.
bukan niat untuk jadi hipokrit..bukan niat untuk menjadi 'fake' if i could make the smile original i would.
tipulah kan kalau kita terasa hati kita boleh senyum dengan penuh keikhlasan  [Rasullullah s.a.w je yang mampu] kita bukan nya sempurna or maksum.
tapi aku buat tu atas sebab
sebab aku tak suka konflik..kalau aku bukak mulut dan respon balik sama je aku dengan mereka yang bercakap tanpa fikir pasal perasaan orang lain.[sama bodohlah maksudnya aku ni]
so baiklah aku stay cool and smile. biarlah tak ikhlas tapi aku cuba untuk tidak menyakitkan hati orang lain.
and sometime it iss necessary to use the fake smile. bila kita berhadapan dengan orang yang lagi tua dari kita....haissshhh bila bkak mulut nak respon hati aku mesti datang memujuk jangan--- nanti jadi biadap, derhaka, sabar. Allah je tahu. pahit pun telan je lah~



to be continue...

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