i really need to let this out.
one of those days all i want is just be alone.
but at the same time not being alone. or maybe just someone to be alone with.
but now is not that.
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now i justa want to be alone. like for some time. give me space. i am so used to being alone. i grew up being my own friend. so please let me be comfortable being alone.
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unfortunately my mother is sick. bad
 i know she need me
i know that
but i also a human
i have my needs.
need to be alone.
please.
it is so suffocating.
every 5 minutes asu asu asu asu asu asu
like fuck.
please. tidur pun asu
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i just keep quiet to avoid being rude.
i know am loser jackass like that.
just leave me alone. i love you mother but.. so frustrating  knowing you can't control it either mother. i know. and it is just unfortunate. i am also just a human. a mere human.
how unfortunate. i don't even has a place to talk to.
whenever i say something. all the answer i get. sabar la biasala tu.
 fuck you. i know la. i just need to let it out.
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i am letting it out. let it all outttttttt here! hah
hoping to get better. dunno how long this gonna take.
i've been very tired for the past few days. feels like living zombie. damn tired