doctorate study is something else i'd say that.

never in my entire life have i feel i know nothing and nothing at all.
searching for knowledge in a structured way at the same time benefiting others only then there is a meaning to the knowledge. is not easy-
definitely not easy.
never said it was easy but no one ever said it was this hard
they did tho..
but never i ever imagine it is this hard.
hardship is incomparable-
every hardship is entitle in it environment and situation
nothing is less than the other.
how human sometime fails to see that. most of them ~

patah seribu harapan. ini lah agaknya rasa tu. hahaha drama ngatttt
tawar hati, hilang semangat, hilang arah tujuan all in one kinda feeling.
nak ada semangat ni yang penat. imagine have your heart broken again and again from the same thing. and keep feeling self insufficient. lacking in every way possible. can blame no one but oneself. but no one could give the answer than oneself. how fuck up is that?