Soundless nuclear explosion
10:19:00 PMToday is hard
So hard that i came back here
To write-
To let it out--?
To cope?
To make sense?
To be less painful?
I dunno..we dunno-
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It's so painful that my vision went blurry on another level
The pain didn't go away
Well..it's not the first time
Well we od ourself with sleeping pill usually
So...yeay us
We didn't this time--?
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We hate her
We hate ourself
We hate each other
We hate everything
So much hate
Why?
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Why trying to stay alive is so hard?
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Are we that difficult?
We are aren't we?
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We are not
But we are not common--
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Everything is just so confusing
Today feels so high without even having to od
An explosion in the head
The soundless explosion only we know
Can't keep my eyes fully open
Hate everything
At the same time not really
Feels sorry for myself
But not really-
Didn't know what to feel
But feels everything all at once-
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We are not "normal" but we have to live in this "normal" life
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We have to stay alive--
The least we can do
How?
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