not sure whether i should make this post or not.
still i once read somewhere. writing is also a way of saying something.
something that cannot be said with mere word can be said by story

emmmm pikir pikir
takpelahtakjadinaktulis
taksanggup.takmampu.taknaknantiterbacabalikthenteringatbaliksuatumasananti.

I am so sorry to myself, to my heart and to Allah.

this blog is extremely boring. i don't know why people want to read it. its friggin boring like ughhhhhh.
still i did not put an effort to change it cause i like it that way. I LIKE IT!
I am absolutely weird aren't I--
I wrote this post just to inform that. just so you know. don't expect extravaganza thing gonna pop up suddenly or you gonna find something very interesting reading the post. i never like expectation. it suffocating.
the moment i thought my life is boring then i wonder what do people 'do'? i mean those aren't boring people do? how did they do it? be not boring i mean...

and i am writing this post in an unstable mind.
so if anyone wonder why i wrote such aaaaaaaa post. its just because......

the sunset view on the way balik rumah  i snap this scene with my phone camera while driving. I'm crazy.Big time.and I knew it

same thing, except this one is sunrise i think on the way nak pegi kelas. look...that motorbike uncle is FAMOUS!!

I am literally obsess with sunset!! also capture this stunning scene on my way back home with my crazy,huge and heavy phone while driving

And this one is the sunset view in Kinabalu, Sabah. I love this one coz it remind me of my first independent trip my my fellow friend.  just thinking bout this trip there's this one crazy memories that i value Da most. its the funniest thing ever !! and i am so soooo sorry my friend.period. i really didn't mean it  if she read this post she most probably remember it too. and definitely wants to kill me. only you and me babe knows bout it. hahahahaha its funny and funny and funny no matter how many time i think about it, its still remain funny.

see how boring i am...
okay. the end--

so many thoughts yet so very little words

"I spend my days ignoring you, and my nights disobeying you. But still, you never forget me; not even for a second. Oh Allah, change me"

i can't touch the sky
but--
i've had my head among the cloud

i can't see the wind
but--
i've feel its present everyday

i can't run from frustration
but--
i've manage to go through it

i can't be the hero
but--
i've tried to give my best

i can't walkaway from problem
but--
i've found a way to have faith and redha

i can't turn back time
but--
i've learn to live with it and make full use of it.

i can't erase the bad memories
but--
i've move on and still is.

i can't help feeling sad
but--
i've manage to see the sunny day

i can't stop from felt hurt
but--
i've learn to believe in God.

and today
i can't feel the love
but--
i know God love me double infinity.
_kaKikaRut_

mula2 sekali nak buat statement..kalau agak2 anda memang tak boleh tahan dengan bahasa yang agak kasar menunjukkan realiti kehidupan..jangan baca post ini. ini post untuk mereka, kita, awak, saya, semua ambil pengajaran. terutamanya untuk makhluk yang digelar perempuan~
yang kedua, post ini adalah repost..which means post ini BUKAN DITULIS OLEH SAYA pemilik blog ini..
ini adalah hasil karya Fynn Jamal...love and always inspired by her words regardless the language what people call harsh. to me its better said that way.. barulah orang nak sedar bila ayat tu kena batang hidung sendiri. boleh buat pedoman bolah buat pengajaran boleh buat kita bukak mata luas333>>>>>

because i feel like i'm the worst
so, i always act like i'm the best...


its the best way i find to get rid of everything
the best way to be cool
the best way to be sane...hmmm is it?
but i never the best....
not good enough..just not enough
but am not giving up...i did once and one is enough
just hang in there yo!
its the way God say I Love You.


p/s: get yourself together okay!! you can do it..you always manage...you'll find the true means of fine okay 'me'. stay put and wait for me to get you okai!

how hard it is i'll just grit my teeth, clench my fist and hold my breath
denying is never the best choice
sometime its the only choice.
hypocrite?
everybody does it. how wrong it may sound, its a must. less problem, less hurt you'll make.
but you have to pay for it.
everything have a price.
the price is 'pain'.
the more you use it the larger the pain the little heart of yours to bear.
sometime it is better to leave at that.
sometime it is better to be less favorable person.
sometime it is better to be the last.
sometime it is better to be the jerk.
sometime it is better to be self centered
sometime it is better to be blur
sometime it is better to be the supporting role.
sometime it is better just to leave~