i'll be fine i will be fine i want to be fine i need to believe i will be. *** never i ever imagine i'd feel it again . it's bad. run away far away . dont try dont even bother to try . dont go there just dont let yourself down . let it go . the short moment is beautiful something...
i really am floating around right now. not knowing what to do. having no pleasure to do anything. just existing i guess. i am making myself confuse. how to go about this life. i am living the present. but not really. my head is somewhat in reality but not, everything seems in cloudnine. everything just pass by. everyday went by with me not...
current state of mind: doesn't have suicidal thought doesn't mean you want to live. . anhedonia: inability to feel pleasure . nothing really matters. . i laugh i cry i live and it's empty . is this the cost to survive a lost cost . it's treatable they said back in my head i do hope so too maybe . good taste is...
life is a learning process learn to enjoy the littlest thing in life even a cup of tea in the morning, the small kisses from your cats, the good morning smile from your colleague.. learn to appreciate it only then you realize how wonderful life if. how beautiful living is. life is a learning process learn to enjoy the littlest thing in...
I really do belong in hell. I dont even know what to do. I do what i feel like doing. I am so sorry mother. I am not a good daughter. I've turn into this monster. I hate everything. Including maybe you too. I don't even know what is what anymore. I can't. I am not nice. I know you are sick but...
the beast in me is growing. how long will this little heart survive. i am sorry. the fight is too tiring. i tried. the beast is me i love it as much. . . i don't want to get depress and i didn't for a while now. but it is at a cost i am losing my heart . . allah is the...
i don't even see a future i don't even sure i'd have a future i don't even see that far i can't even think that far i am not capable- . to go through another day is just as another fight to stay above water to fight through another day is another effort to live is breathed and pass the time to loose...
doctorate study is something else i'd say that. never in my entire life have i feel i know nothing and nothing at all. searching for knowledge in a structured way at the same time benefiting others only then there is a meaning to the knowledge. is not easy- definitely not easy. never said it was easy but no one ever said it was this...
i really need to let this out. one of those days all i want is just be alone. but at the same time not being alone. or maybe just someone to be alone with. but now is not that. . now i justa want to be alone. like for some time. give me space. i am so used to being alone. i grew...
