so i have this weird urge to write
so many thought
it comes and goes
i ain't super human--i forgot
i want to preserve it
cause one day
forgotten.
illness no human kind can run from
knowledge is power if it can be saved from the human forgetfulness
and thus i write-
how different we are
how views and personalities made us us
still--we cannot run from damaged and damaging
we move in circular
leaving our trace
marking whatever there is-
a journey worth the lifetime?
maybe not..whom to measure?
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i wrote this so many month ago...remain a draft. i guess this is a good start for 2017. me and belogie me and you. let see what 2017 bring us.
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one ask me why you being poetry..
me: no. this is me writing. this is how my brain works. i am far from a poet. i don't have other ways of expressing my thought than the way i express it. it is as it is.
so many thought
it comes and goes
i ain't super human--i forgot
i want to preserve it
cause one day
forgotten.
illness no human kind can run from
knowledge is power if it can be saved from the human forgetfulness
and thus i write-
how different we are
how views and personalities made us us
still--we cannot run from damaged and damaging
we move in circular
leaving our trace
marking whatever there is-
a journey worth the lifetime?
maybe not..whom to measure?
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i wrote this so many month ago...remain a draft. i guess this is a good start for 2017. me and belogie me and you. let see what 2017 bring us.
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one ask me why you being poetry..
me: no. this is me writing. this is how my brain works. i am far from a poet. i don't have other ways of expressing my thought than the way i express it. it is as it is.
new year is coming!!!!
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2016 has been bitter sweet. mostly boring.
but it's a life lesson nonetheless.
a lot of changes
a lot of growth
a lot of ups and down
all in all a good year.a good year
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best memories in 2016....
i make few new friends. cool friends. good friends
that's a good start. change is good.
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worst memories in 2016
still najib.rosmah
nothing can top this
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one last question in 2016
will you be more happier?
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got a question? ask awayyyy..
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another happy post. good me good me. "pat on the back"
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2016 has been bitter sweet. mostly boring.
but it's a life lesson nonetheless.
a lot of changes
a lot of growth
a lot of ups and down
all in all a good year.a good year
.
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best memories in 2016....
i make few new friends. cool friends. good friends
that's a good start. change is good.
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worst memories in 2016
still najib.rosmah
nothing can top this
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one last question in 2016
will you be more happier?
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got a question? ask awayyyy..
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another happy post. good me good me. "pat on the back"
i love this too much.
cool in all places
and the song is so very amazing
Jyeahhhh a happy post.
it felt a bit weird. out of place.
but a good start.
try try
i realize i am not a happy person here. most of the time. either am lost, pissed or just random.
welp here is the happy me although am super tired. done with finance paper today. damn they are not easy!! i think i just overused my brain after so long.
just one more sem belogie one more sem and i'll be done. jyeahhhh
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i am happy but i am tired so yeah i'll try to be here more when am happy. happy thought happy mode. usually when am happy is when am having my manic episode... yep
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so
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manic is hyper..hyper me is just jumpy and out of control. and definitely not going to sit down and wrote sweetly. kekekeke
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i'll try i'll try belogie. i want to remember am not just dark but there's a light here and there sometime.
welp here is the happy me although am super tired. done with finance paper today. damn they are not easy!! i think i just overused my brain after so long.
just one more sem belogie one more sem and i'll be done. jyeahhhh
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i am happy but i am tired so yeah i'll try to be here more when am happy. happy thought happy mode. usually when am happy is when am having my manic episode... yep
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so
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manic is hyper..hyper me is just jumpy and out of control. and definitely not going to sit down and wrote sweetly. kekekeke
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i'll try i'll try belogie. i want to remember am not just dark but there's a light here and there sometime.
knee pain is real bitch!!!!!
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ye aku tahu-
sakit itu ujian
sakit itu penghapus dosa
merungut itu tidak bersyukur
mengeluh itu tidak elok
yes
yes
yes
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and yes i am just human
at some point i got to let it out
i need to stay sane
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the pain is real!!
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the bitch part is i am so used to the pain that i forgot i am actually in pain
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and here i am suddenly remembered that i am in pain.
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paracetamol ubat tahan sakit is nothing
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and am allergic to some of it...buh how not surprising
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!@#$%^&*()!!!!!
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ye aku tahu-
sakit itu ujian
sakit itu penghapus dosa
merungut itu tidak bersyukur
mengeluh itu tidak elok
yes
yes
yes
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and yes i am just human
at some point i got to let it out
i need to stay sane
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the pain is real!!
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the bitch part is i am so used to the pain that i forgot i am actually in pain
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and here i am suddenly remembered that i am in pain.
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paracetamol ubat tahan sakit is nothing
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and am allergic to some of it...buh how not surprising
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!@#$%^&*()!!!!!
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| because i still function even in pain |
our parents love books. that's how all five of us love books. it all start with parents.
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how much do we love books?
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our parents would buy lots and lots of books. from malay to english. funny thing is our father buy those enid blyton series in malay. but anak2 dia growing up semua xsuka baca buku bahasa malay. hahahaha
but we love those books. it's our childhood. first thing to do when my sisters and brother woke up is read books according to my mom. welp am still not around. -nostalgia-
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now all the books ruined by the banjir. super sad. all of us mourn. literally.
the firs thing that all we care when knowing that our house were hit by those banjir. BOOKS!!
all the books!!! and none could be save. huhu..
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maybe one day i could find those edition again. yes i am that kind of person. i love to keep things that close to my heart. there's nothing much to remember. i don't remember lots of thing from my younger life except for this books.
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one morning i ask my mom to read those princesses stories. but my sister keep nagging and forcing me to read on my own.- i still hate you for that -
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when i grow up only then i realize. i can't really read not until i was 10. that's why i always ask someone to read it to me. damn.
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i've been called a lot thing. i've been dismissed a lot of time. i've been look down in so many ways.
i hate my childhood life.
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except those books
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someone says look where you are now. doing MBA kot!
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nahh MBA is nothing. i don't take this course to prove them what i've been or even to prove myself.
nahhhhhh
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am not interested in that friend.
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i do it because i don't have anything else to do. i end up there.
i guess that's my calling. maybe. who knows
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love hate decision
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i love how many knowledge am getting from this course. but i hate taking exams and people labeling me.
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it's nothing really. merely a recognition.
how sad. being recognize just by grades.
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there should be grade for hard work. which i don't think i'll ever get an A. kekeke~
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none of this fascinate me.
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the way my sound mind thinking how our hand just simply moves just because we want to? how my mind analyze every details and critically evaluate and developing decision? how my small brain keeping me alive? how this small brain operates it self? how my mind has helped me grow and change my views in many ways just fascinate me. amazing ain't it?!
this is the true magic. not even bending a spoon without touching can beat how our hand moves just because we want it to move.
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this is very uncommon post. all this because at 7am we were discussing about BBW and how excited we are to buy books. jeesh we're such a geek family
