new year is coming!!!! . . 2016 has been bitter sweet. mostly boring. but it's a life lesson nonetheless. a lot of changes a lot of growth a lot of ups and down all in all a good year.a good year . . best memories in 2016.... i make few new friends. cool friends. good friends that's a good start. change is good....
i love this too much. cool in all places and the song is so very amazing Jyeahhhh a happy post. it felt a bit weird. out of place. but a good start. try try ...
i realize i am not a happy person here. most of the time. either am lost, pissed or just random. welp here is the happy me although am super tired. done with finance paper today. damn they are not easy!! i think i just overused my brain after so long. just one more sem belogie one more sem and i'll be done. jyeahhhh...
knee pain is real bitch!!!!! .... ye aku tahu- sakit itu ujian sakit itu penghapus dosa merungut itu tidak bersyukur mengeluh itu tidak elok yes yes yes . and yes i am just human at some point i got to let it out i need to stay sane . . . the pain is real!! . the bitch part is i am so...
our parents love books. that's how all five of us love books. it all start with parents. . how much do we love books? . our parents would buy lots and lots of books. from malay to english. funny thing is our father buy those enid blyton series in malay. but anak2 dia growing up semua xsuka baca buku bahasa malay. hahahaha but...
You can cross the bridge when you come to it. slowly am losing my sleep i am nothing but thankful Allah is all i got. and i am thankful i hold on. it's hard but i can do it. i have to do it. ...
today i lost it. no more. so close. all i could think of last wish. again and again i thought what's my last wish last food to taste last thing to do one last thing . please no more. . god don't give up but i do for so long she's been holding to this tiny winy rope and she don't have the...
mom: asu me: hmm mom: asu potong rambut pendek sesuai la nampak comey. hensem.. aah nampak hensem me: yup. i know that since forever. (smirk face) wakakakakaka . . . please stay with us for a long time mother. i am scared that one day i wake up and you are not there anymore. that is one scary thought. ...
everything is clear the smell the colour the uneven roadthe orange sky the breeze from the west the trees flowing freely . baggy pants plain white shirts long creme flannel worn off grey plaid shoes . she walk along the road humming hmm hm hmmm hm hmmm hum hmmmmm . smiling feeling the breeze touching her cheek softly closing her eyes savoring the...
Today for the first time she actually feel something. Sad or pain or fear maybe all of it. It's still blurry. . It's suffocating. She can't really breath. Her heart beating too fast it hurt. And she want to cry so bad. So she did. . Because today she saw the pain of her mother's. Today she feel the mother's sadness Today she...
there are too many things that i don't understand. one of them- when people don't understand what i understand. why? second- the clarity of the illogical things that people find so fascinating. why? third- when people find it funny when someone sincerely asking a question. why? . . level 2 ]]]] the practical and most basic needs that any human need is to...
Desperate. Yes. How far can she go. Slowly she's heading to a road that feels so familiar. Like walking back home. The voice keeps echoing over and over "you might go to the end of the world but you will always belong to this place." . "At least she tries."she said She learn she go out looking for herself. But she knows she...
everything changes. i grow so much. i did so much. i tried so much. i hide so much. i learn so much. and . here i am. stay put the same spot . here i am talking to myself again, i maybe cannot feel. but i do know what pain is. i do know what hurt is. i fucking know what self worthless...
terkadang kita lupa hingga keluhan menjadi teman . terkadang kita lupa hidup ini sementara . terkadang kita lupa manusia itu sifatnya berbolak balik . terkadang kita lupa ibu itu anugerah paling besar dari allah . terkadang kita lupa kita ini bukanlah siapa siapa, hanya engkau yang diberi nama. . terkadang kita lupa ini mungkin ramadhan terakhir . rindunya sudah menyinggah ...
passing through a wedding along the road the same question came across one's mind is the bride beautiful are the couple match each other how did they meet how did they know that they are the one for each other how sure are they about everything . Make one wonder as it doesn't seem logical nor its attainable. there's no senses in that...
When it happen you can't even feel it. You don't know what to feel. You cry because parting never feel good. But you never understand why you cry, sad maybe?. Till one day you feel this nothingness yet solid, hollowness but heavy feeling all at once. * Never like to talk about it. Never want to talk about it. I'm not good at...
I won't regret saying this This thing That I'm saying Is it better than Keeping my mouth shut That goes without saying Call, break it off Call, break my own heart Maybe I would have been Something you'd be good at Maybe you would have been Something I'd be good at But now we'll never know I won't be sad But in case I'll go there Everyday, To make myself feel bad There's a chance I'll start to wonder If this was the...
You're there..but within a minute you are forgotten. I think everyone crave to have that person don't have to be many..just one person is enough. To just understand..be there..without you ask..without you say anything. Sadly it's impossible. ...
Joy is acceptance. Accept life is full of bullshit. Accept some thing just can never be yours. Accept it and move on. That's when joy will come to you. ...
"no one is a virgin life screw us all" wakakakakakakaka the best saying ever. when the sun ain't shining no more. and the winter comes we constantly at war and most of the time we feel numb. I'm not a saint but people tend to make me one. I'm not smart but people tend to think am one. I'm not always nice but...
Time move forward all we could remember is pieces of our memories and you are always one of those pieces.-- That one time I did fall in love naivety and innocent soul foolish heart unexpectedly fall for you. It's bitter sweet feeling. You make me smile and you make me na na crazy. I think of you when I don't want to think...
my heart die a little but i'm still breathing how strange. head lose it's bearing a bit but i'm still smiling how sad. it's okay. no one need to know you better than you know you. discover and accept the hardest fact about our self is the hardest thing to do. once you do you stand still, look pretty, be cool. not everything...
andai ku tahu kapan tiba ajalku ku akan memohon tuhan tolong panjangkan umur ku andai ku tahu kapan tiba masaku ku akan memohon tuhan Kau jangan ambil nyawaku aku takut akan semua dosa dosaku aku takut dosa yang terus membayangiku andai ku tahu malaikat Mu kan menjemput ku izinkan aku mengucap kata taubat padaMu aku takut akan semua dosa dosa ku aku takut...
How innocent one can be it come and it goes leaving the stain of butterfly touch It may be just a touch and just a memory to keep. I might never feel this again tomorrow I'll treasure this present and live to enjoy the present. ********* Is it beautiful? Is it childish? ...
“Remember to always be yourself. Unless you suck.” ― Joss Whedon :: just so you know belogie I love this quote so damn much. kekekeke ************** I just have to let it out. I realize I have this problem or syndrome or habit i don't know.. anyhow the issue is I found that I am very stingy.. a stinger. I think. I just don't want...
I'm too tired to smile again And I'm too hurt to ever be friends There's no use in lying again And I'm too bruised to fight anything I'm so tired of being afraid And I'm so sick of wasting away And there's no truth in whatever you say You tore my heart out again and again I can feel you in my chest...
One day someone break our heart The next we break our own heart Then a voice screaming in my head... So what can I do? Betrayal is a feeling only one can feel Like a wave come hitting on the rock splashing and shattering itself Is it naivety or stupidity So what can I do? Waiting on another day to come And another...
the longer you live the larger your sin the more you learn the heavier your insecurities ****************************** one sheep two sheep.. one blink two blink and here we are; in this page talking to each other realizing how we have aged. You know when you are aged when you read or heard the latest technology or celebrity that you never ever ever heard...
Shyly saying this Aurora just sooth me. She just took all the pain and tiredness away. How wonderful it is to feel like someone understand you but they don't even know you. How can another person gracefully say in her words all thoughts and what not in MY head and heart. I am just thankful for that alone. Why? ********** Let me tell...
Looking for something. What? I don't know. Why are you looking for it? emm I don't know maybe I'm bored. Is that it? Then it's not that important. Well yeah I guess it's not important. ***** Looking for something. Again? Yeah..and I still don't know what is.. I don't understand. How can you look for something and not knowing what is.. It doesn't...
Is it measured by hate? Or by anger? or is it measured by size? what is it? How can it be insignificant? ******** pain look at it or look away. ******** hate Let it be or tame it ******* Insignificant is a short cut route we take to move forward even when one is hurting. It's another way one says "I'm okay" "I'm...
Jom throwback- entry ni ditulis almost 3 years ago..how time flies. ************* mancari cari suatu perkara..sampai sekarang masih mencari sampai satu masa..ia datang kepada kita tapi aku tak mampu untuk merangkul kemas agar ia tak mampu untuk lari dari aku lagi apa itu redha? apa itu keredhaan? cakap dengan mulut memang senang saya redha dengan ketentuan Ilahi.. semua yang berlaku ada hikmah nya...
It came crashing, leaving me in stupor feeling like a loser don't know what to do Don't know what to do Ooh this is new- I have eyes, so I can see I have ears, so I can hear Nothing seems to work Fiery colours is all I can see Heavy clashing storm all I can hear don't understand- nobody knows Nobody knows...
What is the purpose of life? I believe that the purpose of life is to be happy. From the core of our being we simply desire contentment. All of the sudden I shock myself of how much I have grown. I didn't change I just see thing very differently now. I can be patient when things doesn't go according to plan. I can rationalize when...
Take me home where I belong Oh home..will I ever find it. I kept turning running looking for you-Home where are you? Days comes as night goes.. then it's another day. I can't take it anymore. Patient run low. It's suffocating Then all I could see is nothing. The feeling it's not real. Here I go.. I don't know where to start I...
Broken bottles in the hotel lobbySeems to me like I'm just scared of never feeling it againI know it's crazy to believe in silly thingsBut it's not that easyI remember it now, it takes me back to when it all first startedBut I've only got myself to blame for it, and I accept it nowIt's time to let it go, go out and...
People call it bipolar disorder. One minute you're happy as if nothing wrong.. people call it manic.the next minutes you feel empty.. as sarah silverman says it's like being homesick but you're at home.and people call it depression. It's tiring.too tiring. You love being alone too much. The comfort of your own bubble. People said you don't open up. Tbh people never ask....
